Do not hold it against me for evil.
Smoke again, I had to stop. I promised myself. But with me, bastard! I got drunk, I broke something. The home team will kill me. Bills still not paid. What do I do with them? Fall from grace is already bad. My heart goes out to the poor flame of the lighter. I light the next .. and another .. The terrible famine. Sleep isnt enough for me anymore. I have nightmares. I cant stand already. I've got a fucking gun from a fucking junkie off the street. He gave it to me along with one cartridge for the property .. I dont want to be like him. Rejected by society. No one loves me. Nobody knows about me. A terrible loneliness. Loading her. My beloved. Only she understands me and fully supports my tears. I love her. An example of it myself in my head. I remember all those times until now. I grab the trigger. And my beloved .. Shot ... Scream .. Noise .. Is it? Heaven? I rub my eyes, close them. I take a breath. I open them. I'm in bed. I'm crying again.
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